Perfect

I never guessed you would say it. I never knew you could love me. I always thought you were forever over me. Forever gone, lost, forgotten. But, you' re here, I'm here, we're here. Together. Saying these words I thought were forbidden. I'm smiling. You're expressing. I'm loving. You're remembering. Remembering me. Remembering us. Recalling my smile, my laugh, my love, and my care. I asked you for something I thought I knew I would never hear. You replied immediately said it. I cried. I was stunned. I was happy. Truly happy. Now that I know you feel this way. That we are at least a tinny tiny bit possible. You are mine. Mine to love. And I will forever hold you close. Forever remember my first love. You only get one TRUE love. I hope this is it. Because you're perfect.

You and Them

If you love someone more than yourself, should you let them go if they don't love you back? But, If you let them go....there gone. That amazing feeling you get when you are with them. Like falling, like flying, like living, like dieing. It's all gone. they love someone else though. So, what to do? Do I let them go? Forget them. Forget how much love you gave them. Forget how amazingly perfect they make you feel. You have never felt this much love before. If hurts to remember the day you hurt them. The day you wanted to end it all. The day you screwed up your life. WHY DID YOU DO THAT? WHAT IN THE RIGHT MIND MADE YOU FEEL, THINK, DO THAT? You need to let go of them though. You know you do. But, you can't. You probably never ever will. What is the use caring anymore? What is the use loving anymore? What is the use being there anymore? If all it does is hurt....then why? Because, you made a promise to always be there.   You don't break promises do you? No more of that; you have lied too much already. You're done being a liar. You're done being a whore. You're done being a failure. That's probably why they won't come back. Why they dispise you somewhere on the inside. Why they left in the first place. So, goodbye love. Goodbye hope. Goodbye them. Goodbye you....

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